Thank you. Indeed Spiegel et al (2011, p.826) in their incisive critique say: Importantly, the ICD-10 describes dissociative disorders as primarily acute disorders that usually remit within a few weeks or months, and that have an onset in the immediate context of events that are highly stressful, traumatic, and/or that involve intolerable, insoluble problems. Hi, for the longest time, I thought that I had OSDD-1b, and its come to my attention that might not be true. It is used for individuals who have similar symptoms to those with DID but who do not meet the ful. DID/OSDD symptoms are always unrelated to other medical conditions or non-disordered experiences, such as substance use or epilepsy. Modes in BPD don't have a separate sense of self. Sandra in our system has described it as I dont stop fronting, but who that I is shifts. Part of recovery it is. (Literally -- there is no fundamental difference between the "host" and "alters" other than who takes care of the day to day responsibilities. A full switch is rarely necessary. OSDD fits a lot better. How are major life decisions going to be made? Rapid cycling, sometimes called rolledexing or carousel-switching, is when multiple alters are shoved to front in quick succession. These cookies will be stored in your browser only with your consent. they're pure fucking evil and have ruined me in more ways than i can count but that's not the point. Eventually it became apparent that a few of us were able to front (like 2-3) and some others if forced, on rare occasions, or highly triggering moments to them. It is rarely accompanied by an alter changing what clothing the system is wearing, announcing themselves in public, or extreme whiplashes in behavior or personality. I have experiences like this when the one who normally "drives" gets booted out of the driver's seat when another one of us has such overwhelming emotions that they take over. They are separate diagnostic manuals and which diagnosis you get depends mostly on which manual your therapist is using. This is rarer. I too was committed to a psychosis ward and schizophrenia was ruled out. Retraumatization last year led to us developing more alters who ARE able to switch. And there comes the second fact, I have three ANPs and identify highly with Polyfragmentation, and its a huge mystery to me on if I have OSDD or DID along with that. The outputs are commonly 24vdc but they could be other voltages or relay contact-based as well. Undoubtedly, it is a mixed bag of negatives and positives for each person. I'm usually ok with this sort of contact with my alters, even when what they are leaking through to me and making me have to experience is painful things like flashbacks or difficult emotions, although some of them think and feel in ways that conflict with my personal morals which can be difficult to accept. Wait, is whole possible now? As you can imagine, OSDD-1, in either forms, is difficult to spot and can be a struggle to diagnose. We were a system of 13-14 alters and from my perspective there was very limited full switching. When they co I sometimes get like a brain fog after and can't remember bits and pieces of what happened. In fact, OSDD is meant to be a broad category that encompasses many partial DID experiences. I've had 2 non-switching alters for at least 9 years now. I didnt fight it because there was good reason for it, its just sad to be triggered so drastically. It soon became apparent that what I had been taught was simply not true. Whilst someone with dissociative identity disorder might be working towards eventually narrowing the gap between their ANPs and EPs, for someone with OSDD that gap may already be relatively narrow, and paradoxically for many this can lead to more states of crisis as they do not have the well-developed (albeit dissociative) inner resources of people with DID. It may be important for some people with OSDD to distinguish their experience from that of people with dissociative identity disorder and it would be good for people in this category to come forwards and write about their experience to help people, clinicians in particular, understand the unique characteristics of life with OSDD. Our works, including resources like this, are only possible because of support from Plurals and our allies. Please give this a read! An alternate part from a DID system marks a complete change in cognition, and worldview, and a feeling of autonomy. Then I have historical mes that exist related to the life they faced. It was easily one of the strangest experiences I've had in the now. What is an OSDD system? Thank you, always, for taking the time and energy to translate the unreadable into an understandable language. Rather, this description is based on the literature that pre-dates the body of research on dissociative disorders since the publication of DSM-III. You might sometimes experience the loss of a physical function without a medical cause, such as your sight, hearing, speech, or feelings of hunger. As someone who lives in the States, but plans to move to the UK at the earliest availability, this also helped urge us to get our treatment while we can. Its really weird. Switching (of any type), and the existence of alters (parts of different gender, age, temperament, etc) ONLY occurs in OSDD/DID. The experience of someone with OSDD may be fewer of these extremes, without the deep lows of trauma states of being, but also without the extreme competency of some of the avoidance-based adult parts of a DID system. A lot of people dont even realise that Ive changed I just get told that Im moody or something like that. When there is often a strong emphasis on the dissociative parts of the personality, people with OSDD can feel unheard and unseen, and so I feel that it is very important to validate the reality of the experience of people with the OSDD label. You might feel like you are invisible, two-dimensional, or a robot. Like all other alters, non-human alters are the result of trauma and an already severely dissociative mind. What are the rules for your outside relationships? This category only includes cookies that ensures basic functionalities and security features of the website. This is a scholarly article from Harvard College that tackles six beliefs about DID, why they are irrefutably myths, and how they are damaging. which is widely accepted at the moment, endogenic systems, who form later on in life, are impossible. You might have moments where you feel like you are in a dream or a fog. So not all information on this website might apply to your situation or be helpful to you; please, use caution. It does cause distress, but that does not indicate what type of help I should be looking for. I keep telling my therapist im that and no one cares and just keep my diagnosis of DID, its actually partial DID not osdd-1b, osdd-1b is no switch amnesia. Its so nice to meet others that feel the same way. I went insane as a 6 year old male child. But people may be diagnosed as OSDD as opposed to dissociative identity disorder simply because their parts didnt show up on cue at a diagnostic interview. Others might tell you that you sometimes act very differently, almost like different people. Im here looking for answers, because its all so confusing. For example, ducks at the pond could be a trigger for a 7 year old alter to push their way to front, or someone calling who is a special friend for one alter in particular might trigger that alter to switch out. Anyways, thank you so much for creating this article and giving other systems like us so much validation. Someone might have told you that you did or said something that you dont recall. You might sometimes go catatonic or become paralyzed without a medical cause. But opting out of some of these cookies may have an effect on your browsing experience. Sometimes it's met with a lot of just dissociation or noncontinuous thoughts. this is the first time I have had someone accurately articulate my experience. There would be no use for the brain to develop the disorders if the symptoms appeared later as it wouldnt be protecting itself in the moment, which is the whole purpose of the disorder. It all feels international with so e rexterior differences that most people won't pick up on or won't think a thing about it. But there are a range of difficulties in gaining a diagnosis at all, not least the fact that very few NHS staff are trained to spot dissociative symptoms, let alone administer the gold standard, the SCID-D assessment tool. never heard of any psychosis with those features. Other Specified Dissociative Disorder is a diagnosis which was introduced in the DSM-5 psychiatric manual, released in 2013. It allowed us to finally explore our system on our own terms without worrying about any sorts of theoretical rules about how we should be. Things come out of my mouth, stuff Im saying and I dont know why Im saying it. You might not be able to access same skills, knowledge, or talents that other alters have. It doesnt feel like me, and when Im like that I can remember things that I dont remember the rest of the time, although Im always worried that Im making it up. Hope this helps <3, Also: possessive switching is when you genuinely feel like someone else is in the body instead of you (so the consciousness stays with the alter that switched out), meanwhile non-possessive switching is when you feel like you become said alter (so the consciousness stays with the body). I would also like to thank you. Also, at one moment, I would be okay with something someone said and then only for me to become intensely furious after an hour. A body with multiple identities is known as a system. Slow switches can also indicate that the system is heavily dissociated and depersonalized and that alters are struggling to connect with the mind and body. I don't think of things as like.. they "will get better" but moreso that they will change, and that is something to aim for. However, some systems dont fit into either of these boxes! You should look into persecutor alters and the reasons they might exist. The only other.tine I had something like that happen was when I was really young and knna camping trip and kept.auddenky.thinking I was at home. You might have moments where you dont even remember the times you have forgotten things. None of us remember it, but thats ok. We dont need (or want) to know what happened in our childhood that caused everyone to form, although our carer usually encourages us to try to remember because she thinks it will be good for us or something. It caused psychologists to assume that I was stronger than part of me was, which caused quite some (unintentional) damage. All about Other Specified Dissociative Disorder (OSDD) - an explanation about OSDD-1A & OSDD-1B - powertotheplurals.com, The biggest collaborative Trans Plural Livestream, 10 free resources for new and questioning Systems. But what is also there is that when, for example in conversation with a psychologist in the past, when he indicates that its just mood switching, I kind of start to feel hurt and unvalidated, as if parts of me, or moods want to be acknowledged separately, my angry mood gets angry because Im not the vulnerable self or Im not that weak, fearful, kind side of myself. i just don't have it in me anymore. She asked me to sketch the parts I am aware of, so I did. For example, a system that has distinct members but does not switch would still be OSDD, despite not fitting into either A or B. Non-switching systems definitely exist, as they were a diagnosis in the DSM 3. Dissociative identity disorder alter-switching is always done to keep the system functioning and safe. a) Assuming that the goal of working through a system's DID issues is to find ways to identify and address what generated these, in an ideal world where a system (after a serious amount of amazingly hard work) could successfully identify, address and even resolve these issues, would the "ultimate" goal be to put each identity to "rest" and only keep one (ideally one that combines the strongest characteristics of all the others), or is keeping many identities that work well together also considered a successful ultimate goal (in other words, is having multiple identities necessarily a disorder)? You might have episodes where you feel like you dont know who you are, like youre a combination of alters, or that youre just not like yourself. [1] There are four listed example presentations of OSDD, but what qualifies as OSDD, or what OSDD can look like, is very diverse. 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